By: Elysia
To be found in the ‘Just Let Go’ aisle
There are those songs which you know, deep inside (if you care to admit it), describe aspects of yourself that you don’t let most people see. Perhaps they represent things from your past, or things you’ve overcome but still need to take out of their box once in a while to think about, before you bundle them back in for several more months or years. Perhaps even, eventually, forever.
I don’t think it’s any big secret that we all have these facets to our personalities, these depths to our characters. I would worry about anyone who said they didn’t. And I don’t think it’s bad that some of us are so keen to tackle them personally and keep them hidden, perhaps only letting a privileged few in, if we think we can trust them (and privileged they are, though they might not realise it at the time). That’s human (or, at least, my) nature. I would always much rather be happiness distilled for the majority of my life and whisper with my own demons in my own time.
It doesn’t mean I’m hiding anything, not really. It just means that I choose to not let certain things dictate the person I am. Apart from, of course, in those exceptionally rare times where something or someone pushes you somewhere you didn’t expect.
One such song which will always be one of those which represent aspects of my personality so few people will ever see, has to be R.E.M.’s ‘Bang and Blame’. I don’t mean the lyrics fit perfectly throughout (though there are a handful of sentences that might as well have been written for me), but I don’t think lyrics alone are what it takes for someone to identify with a song as a whole.
It catches that feeling when you really do ‘let go’, and tremble on the edge of a path that you know you really don’t want to go down. And then, hopefully, you close the box, and it’s all locked away again, far from the prying eyes and memory of (nearly all) the world.